Home for the Holidays
Hello, friends. Long story incredibly short, I didn’t make it out to Spokane and will not be going. I got exposed to covid and since two family members have autoimmune diseases, I’ll be home for the holidays.
In all honesty, the past two weeks have been insanely stressful. I feel overworked, overwhelmed, unmotivated, exhausted, anxious, and to be honest, not very festive. It’s been the holidays for 2.5 months at my job (retail marketing) and this holiday doesn’t feel magical anymore. It feels forced. Everyone I know is breaking their back to buy gifts for people who have more than enough.
I feel a lot of guilt this year. There are so many children who don’t get anything under their Christmas tree. Why am I getting so much when I have a job, a roof over my head, and enough food to feed a family of 10?
Home for the Holidays
So, I’m not upset about Christmas. Plus, everything happens for a reason. My friend got really ill and stores are not doing grocery deliveries due to the holidays. I ended up running errands for her and myself this morning.
She would have been completely alone and stranded, had I not been stuck here too.
Even though I had covid in September, and I got my booster last Friday, I have a very low chance of getting it again. I don’t want to risk it though. I’ll test tomorrow (the 72-hour mark) but, I’m still not going to drive to Spokane, just to come back two days later.
The holidays alone
This brings me to my next segment, I guess. I’ll be home alone for Christmas. Generally, when I’m with my family we brush our teeth, get dressed, and open gifts immediately.
Tomorrow I won’t have any presents and I feel… really good about that. As mentioned before, I have so much more than most people. I make enough money to support myself and next year I fully plan to volunteer more. My friend suggested a few organizations that need board members and that’s something I would be interested in putting my time towards too. Not to mention just giving more.
You guys know I have a soft spot for children and I want to make sure I can do my part.
Current plans
I don’t have any! I am going to speed read through my book because that’s due for Monday’s Books & Bottle Series. That series is going to change in the new year. I’ve decided to cut back on my spending and also my wine intake. I haven’t decided on the & part of that series but I love reading.
I also have plans to watch Noelle, Home Alone (it’s fitting), and While You Were Sleeping. My hands will be knitting or I will be rowing. 😊
It’s going to be a very healthy holiday. I’m going to do a lot of self-care.
Dinner
Leftover Chicken Tortilla Soup (this is my favorite recipe)!
Did you make it to your loved ones for the holidays? I would love to know what you would do if you were alone.
Wishing you all a very safe, happy, and healthy Holiday.
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